It's getting to that time again. Still with the work, still with the little time, but it's a little more collected, a little more solemn this time. More goodbyes, more realization that it will be my turn next. More parallel with the last time I was a junior at graduation. More good friends to look forward to seeing again. More responsibilities that I know I can't truly escape, only put on hold for a few months. More time to myself, more focus on what I want to do and don't want to do. A little more understanding of the worth of an hour, an evening, a semester. I'd like to say a cleaner room... but there's always one more thing to improve.

Maybe next year I'll make time for a relationship. Maybe next year I'll keep my cool and know what I am looking for and how I feel when I really need to. Maybe next year I'll be on my assignments like white on rice. Maybe next year my thesis will be my life, my passion, my opus... Maybe next year saying goodbye to all my friends will be easier than saying goodbye to a few of them this year. Maybe I'll step up and take the reins, and become the master of my domain. You never know until you try...

Beach: good.
"The Swamp:" Awesome.
Road trip with awesome people: Most Excellent.
Presenting Helicobacter to a bunch of other bio people and getting enough compliments the rest of the day to make me feel great about it forget how bad I thought it was: Priceless.

Undergraduate Maiden's Lament to John Keats

John Keats, do you think it's right
To keep a girl awake all night?
Cursing, mumbling, moaning, griping
Taking No-Doz, typing, typing
Analyzing all the modes
Of working out your wretched odes.
A girl to keep her young cheeks rosy
Needs more of Sleep and less of Poesy.

Janet Eisner, from JSTOR

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So I've made some headway today into my confusion. My life is far from sorted out, but it's a start. I make many starts... now I have to start to finish them. And I kind of like the poetry thing, so I'll keep listening to "I Don't Wanna Know" and being melancholy, at least for writing.

unloved, I am stone
time still falls in endless drops
wetting marble eyes

Women have me stymied again. Big surprise. I think I need to give this a rest. While I am not enamored of the idea of being single for four more months, I need to get my act together. Maybe after that I won't be so stupid.

When I was young
I fell in love
She was a goddess
With a world inside of her mind

When she moved on
Something went wrong
She took my power
And the love I had inside

Now that I've found you
I don't know how to

If I could fall in love again
I'd fall in love with you
If I could change a grain of sand
Into a pearl I would

- Lenny Kravitz, If I Could Fall In Love Again

bittersweet stasis
as I await the return
of love's entropy



Dan's reaction: you had to put science into it, didn't you?

Dammit James, I'm a doctor, not a poet!

Somebody said they saw you
The person you were kissing wasn't me
And I would never ask you
I just keep it to myself

I don't wanna know
If you're playing me keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if you're creeping please don't let it show
Oh baby I don't wanna know

- Mario Winans


In an ironic way, kinda makes me wish I had someone to get bummed over.

What's better than Dave Chappelle's impersonation of Lil Jon?

Dave Chappelle imitating Lil Jon in a skit with the real Lil Jon!

"What? What? What? WHAT? Okaaay! Yeeaah!"


Best Chappelle EVER.

WHO HAS A COMPUTER?

I SAID, WHO HAS A COMPUTER???

TOM, THAT'S WHO!!!!

Now Playing:
Jay-Z, Dirt Off Your Shoulder
Adema, The Way You Like It
among other things.

April? Who said it could be April? So much work to do, so much to think about, so many choices to be made... and I'm going home in a month. Who authorized this???

Life is too short already without being rushed.

"If you havin' girl problems
I feel bad for you son
I got 99 problems
But a bitch ain't one..."
- Jay-Z, 99 Problems