Now playing: Linkin Park, Numb

So I've decided once again that uncertainty and confusion are the inevitable results of being around women. I have to say, I've had more clear thoughts on that subject lately than is usual for me, but I have yet to find a definite course of action that appeals to me, and until then I will likely continue to weigh all the different possibilities against each other... and get nowhere. More on this subject if I figure anything out, which - given all the time I spend thinking about it - had better be soon.

Vacation has been more relaxing than I give it credit for; I've had a good time seeing friends I haven't seen enough during the semester, gotten more sleep than one would think possible (thanks to lovely drugs which aren't making me better, either), and spent plenty of quality time with the good ol' video games. It still isn't the same, being alone or just with parents most of the time, but not having to conform to any sort of schedule is positively glorious. I only hope I can spend as much time hanging out with friends during the rest of my time off as I have so far, if not more... damn this living in the middle of nowhereish.

That said, I'm seriously considering a major cutback in gaming this coming semester, no matter what fourth class I get into. I got into the gym this year, but it wasn't good enough, particularly since I've been sick. My current attitude says damn the sickness, a little coughing won't stop me from hitting some weights... the aerobics will come in time. I've already proven that I can, so it's time for a little change and commitment. The only obstacle is this damn lung thing, which is far too well entrenched for my liking; I grant that my next doctor's visit is still a few days away, but the doctor suggested I would feel "like a million bucks," and so far I'm feeling about $22.50.

Anyway, those are the random thoughts of the day. I think I'm starting a paper journal again - i.e. somewhere I don't have to worry about everyone reading my deepest darkest secrets ;) In that case, I may come up with something intelligent to say, rather than this themeless collection of scraps floating about my consciousness. As always, life continues...

Happy Hanuramakwanzmas to all, and to all a good night.