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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Sooo...

Things I've thought/realized/remembered since being home:

- Playing piano is pretty awesome... especially when I don't have to do it for class.
- Arcanum is a great game, especially [blah blah blah dorky stuff].
- There is no such things as too many DVDs or too many special features.
- Clarinex really does lose its effects over time... and I'm still allergic to my house.
- Beta fish are very simple fish, with very small... stomachs.
- I will miss college dearly, and I will miss the people there even more.
- My thesis is sooo not getting done when I wanted it to.
- I still have no idea what I'm doing next year. And it's scary.
- I want to have more fun at college, and I want to work harder and learn more... I don't really need to sleep, do I?
- Knowing the right thing to do, but at the same time realizing how hard the decision will be, is excruciating.
- I wish my Dad wasn't in the midwest running away from his problems, and I wish my Mom wasn't bottling hers up.
- I'm not a teenager anymore... damn.
- So there's this girl...
- ...heh, what's new.
- Anyway.
- Hokay. So. Here you have the Earth. "That is a sweet Earth," you might think. Wrong!
- It's the end of the world as we know it, and I feel fine...
- I don't have any New Years plans.
- I kissed a girl at New Years once... Once. It was good.
- I've slept on a couch the last two New Years...
- Last New Years was also the first time I heard of Martini & Rossi champagne. Which is the awesomest.
- This has turned into a stream-of-consciousness thing, which I'm okay with. Except it's not really stream-of-consciousness, because I definitely won't write some of the things I'm thinking of. Some things... you just have to say in person.
- Moving on... if there is such a job as part-time masseuse, I should look into it.
- And no, no happy ending.
- I'm in a very odd mood right now. Not really tired, but not really motivated. I suppose I'll put my computer together so I can put music on my new MP3 player. Yay for a birthday present I know just what to do with!
- Dad sent me pecans, disposable shaves, and machine oil for Christmas/birthday. I rest my case.
- In case it wasn't clear, I'm now 20. No congratulations are necessary, I didn't do it on purpose.
- I have absolutely no plans for my birthday, except perhaps sleep in. I do that a lot lately.
- I brought home video games that I will have positively no time to play. Not because I don't physically have the time available before I go back, but because I don't intend to make time for them. Try that one on for size!
- Fwahaha, the computer works! (As well as it ever did, anyway.) Birthday plan #1: install the sound card and DVD-R drive I bought months ago. Gloat in triumph as my computer now works flawlessly (dream on).
- Backup Birthday plan #1a: find bottle of Martini & Rossi...
- Last MP3 player: 20GB. Contents when it broke: 19GB. Number of songs: 3900+. Number of songs I actually listened to regularly: <1000.>
- You'll be doing alright
With your Christmas of white
But I'll have a blue Christmas
- It wasn't actually a blue Christmas; it was quite nice, if somewhat low-key. But I like that song.

- In case it isn't apparent, I stopped having intelligent things to say a while ago, and am currently using this post as a diversion while my computer loads music tracks.
- So I'm going to sleep now. "Now" being after I post this, turn off the computer, turn off the other computer, clean off my bed, and change. Here's to another good year, and as more fun in the next few months than is scientifically possible. And if I don't post
before then, Happy New Year.


Sunday, December 19, 2004

Now Playing:

But she'll be there when I'm gone
Yeah she'll be there when I'm gone
Damn sure she'll be there

- Metallica, Unforgiven II



I'm done.
It's over.
Time to go.

Good night everyone, wherever you are...


Tuesday, December 14, 2004

The girl I love, I loved before
I loved before, but could not love
For passing time, and stars above
The girl I loved, I love her more

The girl I loved, loved me before
A bloom of Spring, though grown in Fall
But now through Winter does life crawl
Love's spring frozen evermore.