Now Playing:
Linkin Park, My December

Yes, I know it's not December anymore. But I like this song - it fits my mood (sort of) and I'm working on playing it. Who would have thought a left-hand section consisting of four notes, repeated the whole song, could be soooooo annoying. Damn my lack of ambidexterity.


Now Playing:
Mario Winans, I Don't Wanna Know

Ah, the sadness. Classic.


Now Playing:
Linkin Park, Numb

Am I going to stop writing songs and put some actual content down? Maybe, but I'm talking on IM currently, so go read Penny Arcade for a while or something.


So yeah, don't really know what all this depressiveness is about. Maybe it's because my future is finally catching up to me, do-or-die style. Maybe it's because things didn't quite go how I had hoped. Maybe it's because I'm leaving... maybe it's who I'm leaving, what they represent.

Maybe it's because I'm stuck in this house, with nothing I want to do and plenty I have to do but don't want to. Maybe it's because the only person I come in regular contact with has been absorbed into the depressive backdrop this house provides. Maybe I'm angry at my family situation and even more angry at being unable to do anything about it, but disappointed in myself for giving up before even trying.


I'm going to go play "My December."

This is my December
This is my snow-covered home
This is my December
This is me alone